My Goddess Walk...

My Goddess Walk... Spiral Dance...

It began a long, long time ago. When I was a young girl of five or six years of age. It was then that I wanted to blow magical fairy dust on people so that they would be happy.


It was about the same time that I questioned my teachers in Catholic school about their religious teachings. What an upstart I was and still am! *smile*


The first time I knew of the Goddess was when I looked in the mirror and saw my image. She was beautiful to my young eyes and She still is.

Our ancestors used
essential oils angelic and
etheric qualities to purify
worship and sacred places

At around age nine was when I first saw an apparition. I was terrified because I didn't know what was going on and my mother had the doctor come and sedate me. 


Too bad she didn't know what was actually going on. She was not raised in the ways of her Ancestors to any great extent.


Early in my teen years, I felt close to my Native American roots and showed it by wearing beads and moccasins. Little did I know that part of my spiritual path would be of Cherokee roots.

My Goddess Walk... Spirit Connection

Then there was a time in my life when I had wanted to zap anyone who made me angry. I had bought books on ‘black magic' as well as the Satanic Bible. I was dressing in black clothes mostly, with black nail polish. My mother had no idea what was on my mind!


During this time in my life I went to see a movie, The Brotherhood of Satan and in the lobby, there were rows of tables. On these tables, there were tests for the moviegoers to take. I took the test and the end result was that my ‘witch's' rating was 55% and my ‘psychic' rating was 65%. I went to the occult party the following weekend and met my ‘guru'. I was close to my nineteenth birthday at this time.

Soon after the party, I became a student of yoga. I burned all of my books, except one, as instructed by my yoga teacher. Every morning, I awoke to exercise, chanting and meditation. I grew very sensitive to the energy around me and felt everything… and I mean everything.


Sitting on seats on the subway trains in New York proved to be a painful experience. I felt everything about the people that sat in the seat before my arrival and I would literally jump out of most seats, especially those in corners. I think people who are in a lot of pain sit in those seats.


Walking into empty rooms didn't fare much better because I could feel everything that happened in the room, in detail. Too bad I was not taught how to protect myself or cleanse myself. I learned that later on in life, like about thirty years later.


My path led me to quietly meditate whenever I felt danger about and the scent of roses was sweet to my nostrils. This was the scent that would make the ‘enemy' go in another direction. How wonderful to feel safe amidst the ‘predators' of the city.


I carried the love of spirit with me into the early seventies as I walked amongst the ‘Flower Children', loving everyone and being one with nature in all of Her glory. Ah, the days of walking barefoot in the city.


Upon getting married, my then husband and I would meditate together and take nature walks through Central Park. We read a book entitled, The Great Book of Magical Art, Hindu Magic and East Indian Occultism by L. W. De Laurence. 


One night while reading from the book, we lost all sense of time but I do remember when we began reading the book it was 7pm and when we finished reading the chapter it was still 7pm. How that happened I may never know but it was some experience.


Our home was one that was draped in East Indian cloth, from the ceiling to the floor. We burned incense all the time and one night after company left, we could see the energy in the air moving around in a very choppy manner. After burning some rose incense, which was the scent we burned most often, we sat down and watched the energy change. We actually saw it come down in waves and then all was back to normal.


Moving right along, to the later years, there were dreams that I would have and still do of being anointed or going through some sort of initiation. Santeria, Candomble, Palo and then most recently by three Goddesses in the clouds. I almost became a priestess of Chango but I was not led to continue on that path. One of my spirit guides, Our Lady of Guadalupe stopped me and it was then that I began to just sit and wait for a sign as to where on my path I was to be.

My Goddess Walk... Female Creative Power

Sacred Symbol of Female Creative Power

One fine day, while at the library, I came across a book entitled, The Yoni: Sacred Symbol of Female Creative Power by Rufus Camphausen. That book led me to others and the more I read the more I was taken by the Goddess and all of Her glory. The discoveries are endless and for that I am grateful. 


I've explored and studied the Sacred Moontime of women and thus became empowered. I devoured everything that I found at the library about women and the Ancient Ways. I was touched by the Divine Femi9 Energy more than ever before in my life.


Learning about the creative power of the yoni my sacred source of expression, could not have come at a better time in my life.

With age comes wisdom. How glorious!

Yes, yes, and yes again to the Goddess within!

May I know the Ancient Ways and forever keep them sacred.

Spiral Dance Goddess

As I explore the Goddess from around the world, I embrace Her in every culture. I know no separation, no difference in Her Divine Energy. She is the Source of All, the void, the Spiral Dance.


She is awesome as Maiden, Mother, Crone. She is powerful as Lover, Friend, Transformer. She is all knowing as midwife, doula, caretaker. She stands Her ground and waves Her magical wand finger. 


She is Oshun, Oya, Yemaya, Kali, Lakshmi, Psyche, Hecate Gaia, Our Lady of Guadalupe, the Blessed Virgin, Sophia and The Holy Spirit. She is called by these names and even more. I love Her so. She fills me.


Every aspect of the Goddess Energy is to be acknowledged, appreciated, explored and remembered. Walking this Path of the Femi9 Woman™ is one that I was destined to do. I am forever happy that this is the calling that I heard loud and clear. I now enjoy the Moon rituals, either alone or with my beloved soul mate.


I dance the Dance of the Femi9 Woman™ and love every movement. I craft in more ways than one and will continue to do so as I age and become more at one with my Femi9 Crone Self.

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I'm Turenne / Tilarenn. I welcome you warmly in this journey through dance, path of the universal wellness that is conscious movement, with inspirations to fully stir our vital energy and dance your soul.

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